still, yes...

still not available

i am still not here.

i don't know where i actually am.

going through, passing along, looking down.

over.

my head hurts a lot and it's too cloudy.

i'm in love again with something i can't have

because no matter how much i will it, it's not mine to keep.

lord never wanted it to be easy for me.

or you for that matter.

but when i thought it could be so

so easy to just be

i had to remember that you were too great

and i was just not

so forever i am free to want for so much

that i can never have.