1-29-10

On January 29th, 2010 I had my baby boy. It was a complicated situation. I went into the hospital at UPMC Horizon for a simple procedure. They were going to soften the cervix with this medicine that would have or would have not induced labor. They ended up breaking my water. Janice, my midwife, noticed there was merconium in the fluid. It was no big deal. They were going to flush it out. I was supposed to be able to enjoy the labor naturally. I was going to be able to walk around, get into a tub...which didn't work out either...so then I was going to be able to get into the shower. I had a ball to bounce on. I didn't want any pain killers. I had so many plans. My son had different ones unfortunately. I ended up being in a lot of pain that couldn't be lessened by walking around. Every time I attempted to stand up his blood pressure dropped significantly. I finally had to be stationed in the bed. The contractions became too much. I had finally asked for some pain killers, but no epidural. Eric's mom was there, rubbing my back. My mother, sister, and Eric were all there. I Had so much support. Sara was on her way from Columbus. By ten p.m. They had brought in an actual doctor to look in at my situation. She realized the cord was wrapped around his head and that there was no time. I had to be rushed into surgery for a 'crash' c-section. Noo! I didn't want that. But whatever was going to be best for him was what I had to do. I remember them sticking me with needles and telling me it was almost over. I wasn't put under, I had no major pain medicine. I got to do it as naturally as I could I suppose. My son had arrived at 10.25 p.m. I barely remember because they gave me a drug called versed which made me forget most everything. I was back in my room and awake by some time after 11. Sara was there. The first thing I remember being told was Sara telling me that I would be able to have a vbac. Haha, last thing on my mind, right? Everyone was telling me how great I was and that he looked amazing. There is a big blur after the c-section but next thing I know they're sticking me with needles for IV's. one nurse kept failing. My blood pressure kept dropping as well. They had let me attempt to get some sleep some time around 4 a.m. but when the next nurse came to check on my something wasn't right. They had to rush me to the ICU. My blood pressure wasn't stabilizing. Dr. Tate said I needed blood. What? I didn't understand what was going on. I just said yes to everything. By morning they got me a cat scan. They realized I had three liters of blood in my stomach. I had a bleeding muscle. They had to do a second surgery to fix the problem. That was at 8 a.m. I was in so much pain and I just wanted to be better to see my son. I didn't get to see him until noon the next day. On Sunday night they had put me into a regular room since I was able to get up and walk around. It was the most chaotic experience of my life but so worth every second. Today Atley, my little boy, is 11 weeks old. He truly is the light of my life. I wouldn't trade a second of the pain if it meant I didn't have such a perfect child. I am the lucky one. And I now know that nothing is as bad as it seems.

2010

okay. 7 days into the new year it's already starting to be amazing.

if we keep our heads on straight it won't be so bad.

and...we got our own place!

i can't wait to furnish, nest, build a home out of it. :-)

next is baby.

then is attempting to raise a child in this world.


after school/money/legal/driving situations are finished there's the rest of the world.

love.

Nancy

I was incredibly blessed earlier this month when I had the chance to go to Reading, Pa with my mother to visit our cousin Nancy. Nancy and her husband had a business called the Baby Preview Co. where they would offer 3-D ultrasounds. Luckily She was up to visitors right at the perfect time to see the baby. Mom and I had a great drive out and we made it to her house which was at the top of a mountain it seemed :-) It was gorgeous up there. And their house was amazing. He has art from all over the world, she had witch's balls in the window, and the view through the bare trees was so calming. Nancy made us dinner and we talked and talked. She told us about her cancer, some of her fears, and what she was planning on doing into the future.

She was so passionate about her work. Not only did she run this preview company, she worked with mothers and their babies, giving them every opportunity they needed to succeed while pregnant and during the first two years. She was fluent in Spanish and dealt mainly with those who were unable to communicate for themselves what they needed. She got women ready for appointments and showed them what to buy, how to go about, etc.

On the evening of Dec. 2, after dinner, we drove to downtown Reading and went to the facility. There the three of us and the ultrasound technician saw my baby for the very first time. I fell deeper in love with him. It was such a magical moment that I would have to recommend to anyone. Usually it is a couple hundred of dollars to get this done but so worth it!!

After the preview we went back to the house and watched the dvd again along with Nancy's husband, Marty. He even seemed to enjoy it. They were such an adorable couple. I feel so blessed to have had a couple of instances with them, together, such as this gift and 6 years ago when I was in West Chester. Those two had picked me up to take me home for thanksgiving. I got to stay at Marty's home in Pottstown. And on the drive back to Western Pennsylvania we stopped at Falling Water.

The thing that amazes me most about this trip was that within a week and a half Nancy had to give up fighting her cancer. She looked great when we saw her, albeit tired, exhausted, and a little absent minded. After my ultrasound she had gone ahead and had one of her own to take a look at her liver. There she realized it was everywhere. When she finally talked to her doctor they decided to quit treatments. Yesterday on December 20, she finally passed. I love that woman. To me she was like an aunt and nothing can express how happy/grateful I am to have seen her when I did.

<3<3<3<3 Sunset Rubdown

*********This is one of my favorite songs of theirs. I had no idea it wasn't already on an album until this summer*********


Stay away from open windows
And put the telephone down.
Can you run as fast as this house will fall
When the alarm bell sounds
No, I was never much of a dancer
But I know enough to know you gotta move
Your idiot body around.

And you cant, cant settle down
until the idiot in your blood
Settles down

So move around, oh move around
Oh move around, oh move around
oh move around, oh move around
Wo-ow!

And if I found you in this city
And called it “Paradise”
I say I love you but I hate this city
And I’m no prize

You want to walk around like you own the joint,
The way that Icarus thought he might
Own the sky

I said you cant, cant settle down
until the Icarus in your blood
In your blood drowns
No you cant, cant settle down
Until the Icarus in your blood
in your blood drowns

I said, If I was a horse
I would throw up the reins
if I was you
Wo-o-a-o-a-o-a-oh

So, look at you go!
(you were a sorcerer)
Oh, look at you go!
(you were a meteor)
Oh, look at you go!


And you know a heart
And you know your heart

But it’s an idiot heart.
And you know your heart


But you can’t, cant settle down, down, down
Ba-da-da-da-da-ba-da-da-ba-ba
But you cant, cant settle down, down, down
Ba-da-da-da-da-da-da-da-da-da

So just move around, move around, move around
Move around (I hope that you die)
Move around (in a decent pair of shoes)
Move around (you got a lot more walking to do)
Move around (where you’re going to)
Move around

I hope that you die in a decent pair of shoes
You got a lot more walking to do
Where you’re going to.

Ooohhh

Megan's Senior Year

Fill this out about your SENIOR year of high school! The longer ago it was, the more fun the answers will be!! Thought you all who knew me back then might get a laugh out of some memories! Share yours if you want too!

1. Did you date someone from your school?
nope

2. Did you marry someone from your high school?
no

3. Did you car pool to school?
if taking and making steph late for school almost everyday counts, then yeah.

4. What kind of car did you have?
a white fleetwood, cadillac.

5. What kind of car do you have now?
my malibu that i can't even drive. insurance went down....maybe in a couple of years i can start making car payments again?

6. It's Friday night...where WERE you THEN?
oh wow. ENP! or the falls. or early in the year, football field, then enp.

7. It is Friday night...where are you (now)?
at work, then walking around town, doing my friday night banking, getting ready for the next day.

8. What kind of job did you have in high school?
i worked at a fashion bug. amazing clothes, right? i was kidding.

9. What kind of job do you do now?
i work at broad st. market. you know, the lawson's, i mean dairy mart, oops, kings korner.

10. Were you a party animal?
i tried to be one. led to some problems, eh?

11. Were you considered a flirt?
doubt it.

12. Were you in band, orchestra, or choir?
band. i liked it. whatever. also in marching band for requirement and pep band...for fun.

13. Were you a nerd?
nope. i slacked so much senior year. thank goodness i still graduated with honors. class time was sleepy time for me.

14. Did you get suspended or expelled?
nope. but i did get my first detentions and saturday detention. i cried the first time i got it. it was for being late to my 8 a.m. way too many times. eventually i dropped the class and took a study hall.

15. Can you sing the fight song?
i don't think so. but give me a few minutes and i can play it.

16. Who was/were your favorite teacher(s)?
mrs. mills. she woke me up for lunch :-) and even though i didn't have her for a class, mrs. cardille.

17. Where did you sit during lunch?
depended on the day. sometimes the corner with tim and sara...hmm...i kind of forget a lot of that. but almost always in the other room with the stage.

18. What was your school's full name?
Grove City Area High School.

19. When did you graduate?
2002

20. What was your school mascot?
the eagle

21. If you could go back and do it again, would you?
i want to say no...but at the same time there's a lot i would do differently...however, i wouldn't be where i am today without the experience, right?

22. Did you have fun at Prom?
prom? nope. didn't go. a bunch of people were supposed to hang out but it fell through. or whatever. i had much more fun junior prom picking up my friends and riding around in the cr-v.


23. Do you still talk to the person you went to Prom with?
i never went to any dances. i must of been lame. think of all the money i saved on dresses.

24. Are you planning on going to your next reunion?
i don't know. wouldn't mind. but strictly depends on if sara or tim go.

25. Do you still talk to people from school?
a few

A New Toy

Well, what once was going to be an ipod touch is now an Asus EeePc T-91. Best birthday gift EVER! I LOVE IT.

Jeff Hanson - This Time It Will

Night comes and I need someone to take me home
I'm a year's supply of words for no one else
But I'm tired now of offering
Words that you would never understand
Like a dark day, and a cold hand

How it's turned on me again somehow
And my friends that really were aren't really now
And I'm hearing things so quietly
You hold just what you have right over me
Like your whole life, and how it comes right back to mine, oh

Haven't I done this all before?
Maybe I have, I'm not sure
But never again will I be left under the open air
I waited around for you to be there

I won't believe that it's so far away
And I don't sleep now at night but through the day
And you'll ask me why so honestly
But I don't think it's something that I can see
Like an old friend, turning now then once again, oh

Haven't I done this all before?
Maybe I have I'm not sure
But only today will you still keep inside what I have said
It's something new for you to forget

So I'm not making any plans
And where would I begin?
But I'm doing so much better than
So I think you should know

There's not a window that I can't see out
And your stories left too soon to read about
But it was all done so easily
I'm still not sure where I'm supposed to be
Like your whole life, and how it comes right back to mine

Haven't I done this all before?
I know I have I'm quite sure
But never again will I be left under the open air
I waited around for you to be there

Someone that you should have known
Everything was there to be your own