i'll be drinkin' with lincoln in the blue-black sky many years from now. and so will you.
i can't wait for all this nonsense to be OVER!!!!
wait, it's not nonsense. i want my father to not be so sick. i want him to heal. i want him to stand up and walk around, not be so sad and say meggie, i'll be home after work.
but he can't walk and he's not doing so well and he hasn't been to work since may and he's stuck in a nursing home or he'll go to allegheny for surgeries and specialists and...and...
i've been seeing this counselor in hermitage. she's a great listener. she recommended me to somebody for a psych evaluation. ugh. she said i could change my mind but since it's free it wouldn't hurt. i just want to cry until the world gets better.
some people know how to speak their peace, get it out, let it be...and i'm stuck...in...a...rut.
i don't know.
