cheer up kid there

jack say never drink outside your home. my home and the university of life, the falls. i had some baby wine, something sweet, white and yummy. like the fruity twist. and that was eight hours ago.

wow hon, i wish you didn't live to far away, i wish i could call you and you not be working or sleeping...i wish i could just let you know what's up and see what's going on.

the woman in the wheelchair that i pushed into the store and then recharged the mobile in the store. the slushie machine full of blue cloudy slush, the deli that got so backed up and the counters full of food containers, rolls and lettuce, oh and the burnt bacon was yucky. i got off at five and all my friends were busy, working, getting drunk, etc. and i drove to the falls. i sat there and chugged my baby wine and i drank some tea. i absolutely love green tea and i got water from the falls. hmm. i called around for something to do, i was forgotten about and not important enough to see and or talk to but then the nice people :) let me come over.

i drank my water and had a dark chocolate, some cigarettes, it was good, i even watched the mummy...then i had to go to the police station.

who reads this? no one? good!

yeah that wasn't fun. why can't people learn from others' mistakes? it kinda makes me sad. i hope i can remember some of this tomorrow and figure out what i wanted to actually write. until then, i'm going to bed.

good morning.

may 14 - one

one year ago this morning i thought something was finally going my way. four days later my life was over. I thought nothing would ever be good again then my tom who was no selfish dreamer, my jim who will one day call, offered me the kind of help that seemed right.

cheer up kid there, you did the right thing.